The Little Girl Confused

Today, my heart breaks as I remember a little girl....

Who had the courage to say 'no'...

But lacked the physical strength to keep it from happening..

Who didn't understand...

And couldn't explain.

a little girl who began to carry a SECRET inside her...

Because she thought what happened was so bad she couldn't share - least of all with her parents

She wanted to cry but she couldn't - the SECRET might come out.

Sometimes at night while she slept, the little girl would scream -

(But she never remembered the dream so the secret never came out.)

I remember a little girl who suddenly wasn't so sure anymore about the world she lived in.....

And was confused about how she was supposed to feel

It 'FELT' like something 'BAD' had happened...

But What? It didn't hurt!

So maybe it WASN'T bad.

But if it WAS bad - it must be her fault. Because teachers and parents didn't do bad things. Only kids did.

MAYBE her feelings didn't work right, MAYBE she couldn't trust them -

And so she didn't.

She began to spend a lot of time by herself, she talked very little and became very shy...

Her friends didn't understand and little by little drifted away.

But she made one very good friend - a life long friend

Who she could laugh with...

and cry with......

and share secrets with.....

well, not THE SECRET....

She could not share that.