Stalling

Wow! It's been a month since I posted last. It's the Christmas season and I've been busy. But I'm also stalling. The only things left to tell are the SECRETS. I'm embarrassed. I'm mortified. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do this.

Secrets take you prisoner, you know? They make you project a false self to the world. Everyone thinks you're pretty normal - but they don't know the REAL you. And if they did - what would they think?

The bad part is, I hide behind that false self because it's easier than confronting my REAL fears and emotions. The REAL me is fighting to come out. I think she's going to end up winning - but she's in for a pretty good fight!